Day 41: HUGE RELIEF

Well op all done and a few days have passed.  Friday went well. We got to the hospital at 07:30.

Then went into ward/unit, they told Ali to go…. I cried! I wanted him to stay with me until I went to theatre. They relented and let him stay. Thank god! I wasn’t in the best state …. Feeling tired and nauseous. 

The anaesthetist came around and the consultant to see me, she drew on my breast. Lots of getting changed and checking things over. They told me I was first into theatre….. what a blessing. Ali left and I went down to the theatre. They had a lot of staff there just for me!  A heated blanket on the table which I lay on they put a Cannula in my hand. They said you should now feel like you have had 2 pints… I said I felt exactly the same.  Next thing the op was over and I was in recovery!! 

I woke up feeling in pain which I wasn’t expecting, they gave me something, probably Morphine. Then I said I was still in pain…they gave me more. Then it was better. 

Eventually I had some water then a cup of tea and a bourbon biscuit. I remember I felt sooo happy that it was all over and the tumour had gone! Huge relief. 

Ali came to see me. I wasn’t really that bothered I had lost a breast I just felt so relieved the tumour was out my body. The consultant came to see me and said that I made the right decision not to have reconstruction as the tumour was ‘very large’ . That made me happy also. 

Enormous amounts of messages to Ali’s phone and mine. Ali was like a PA!!! Had so many people to reply to. 

Eventually I could go home at 3.30pm. I got wheeled to the car in a wheelchair. Felt great in the car for about 5 minutes then realised I was going to be sick! Puked in a bag. 

Got home, went to bed. Slept. Had some toast and tea…. Puked again. Went to bed again. The anaesthetic and Morphine had made me sick. 

Had morphine when I went to sleep more out of fear of pain in the night than pain. 

Slept fine. Ali is amazing. Next day…. Went to Maria’s she gave me anti-sickness tablets as every time I ate anything I felt like I was going to be sick! 

Went on a walk along the river with Ali. Sat outside as it was a sunny day. Had some lunch. Friend Jill came with soup. Jen with flowers. 

Went on another walk. Then to Waitrose to choose something for tea. 

Very constipated… Sunday still no movement of bowels. Jill bought more soup. 

Got some Dulcolax off Maria.  Went on a walk then out to lunch…. Felt sick while out to lunch and couldn’t finish the meal. Came home and went to bed. 

Monday woke up, some movement of bowels but not enough ! Rang GP. Gave me anti-sickness tabs and drinks to make me go to the loo. Drinks worked within an hour now have the runs! FFS!

Went on a walk, made a chicken dinner. Kids came, Dar came on a second walk with me. Lisa bought a choc cake over… so lovely. 

And here we are on Tuesday!! So sleep seems to have righted itself yay !! My sis comes up today yay. I have been fine but keep going to use my left arm and realise I can’t. Find it easier when it’s in a sling so I don’t feel tempted to lift it. 

Laters. xx