Day 14: Meltdown and a bunch of horrible cells

Yesterday was a busy day. I posted on my group about the cancer so had loads of messages which was lovely. I have decided that it’s better to talk about it than hide from it. That word ‘cancer’ strikes fear into everyone and really it’s just a bunch of horrible cells. 

I made a cake which was a disaster. It tasted weird! 

Consultant rang and said there were 3 tiny abnormalities on my spine on the CT scan and I went into meltdown. Calmness went out the window in  a flash! 

I made a list of questions and rang Lauren the nurse. After that I felt better. I have to have a bone scan now. I will not panic about this as it might be nothing. I spoke to Michelle and she said if they were really worried you wouldn’t be waiting 2 weeks for the scan. 

Also they have said that they may still not know the answers after that scan and might need to repeat in 3 months and repeat the CT scan. 

I am just going to have to deal with the ‘grey’ as this is not black and white. 

Date for mastectomy is 12th May. Apparently I won’t be able to do anything for 6 weeks!!!! Nightmare hate sitting about but so be it. I will end up like a bloody sloth! Eating crisps and watching Netflix!! 

I have cancelled a lot of my coachees. Finding cover for the holiday let will be difficult but I need to sort that ASAP! 

Going to circuits this morning. Then have a free day apart from a few frogs that need eating! (Frogs are things you don’t want to do but need to do)

Great saying ‘Deal with the snake at your boot first!’ Love this … one thing at a time! 

Posted to my group today. Will call Uncle Bob later about the bone scan. 

Bye for now xx