Day 4: It’s all about HOW you respond

I am in Leeds at Niamh’s house (my daughter). Yesterday morning I decided when I was in the gym that I am going to beat the big C!! My mindset needs to remain positive. I went to the gym, packed my stuff up and drove to Leeds!

 

Not a bad journey considering it was bank holiday. Listened to The Beautiful South all the way down. Lots of singing!! 

 

It is soooo good to be here. I actually forgot all about the C yesterday a few times, as I was enjoying myself so much. Definitely the right decision to come here and definitely  the right decision not to tell Niamh yet. I am grateful for all that. 

 

It was a beautiful sunny day and we walked along the canal and chatted. I feel so grateful that Abby is with Niamh. She is such a lovely person and I know she will look after them. This brings me huge comfort.  Abby made an amazing meal. Lots of goodness in it. I am trying to eat things that are nutritious. I have always had a good diet but I am going to up the fruit and veg as much as poss.  A positive mindset along with good nutrition should help a lot. 

 

I was scared when I went to bed. For some reason I don’t want to be alone at the moment. I usually love solitude but I slept well and I am grateful for that. 

 

Today we are going out for the day and Ali is driving down tonight. We are then all going for a meal.  This morning I can’t go to the gym so I am going on a run/walk along the canal. Keeping the exercise up is good. 

 

In the word of the great EPICTETUS… it is not events that shape our lives but how we respond to them. This will be my mantra from now on. 

 

It’s already Sunday and on Thursday I will know more about this chuffing C. My CT scan won’t have been done but they should have the results of the MRI and biopsies back. I was thinking yesterday that there is still a remote possibility they got it wrong and it’s just a cyst or something. How amazing would that be. 

 

OK bye for now… going out in the morning fresh air! xx