Day 6: Home is not just a place, it’s a feeling

I am home and I love home. It was a lot yesterday. Sorting all of Niamh’s  carpets but I am pleased we did and came away feeling happier. We did go to the coffee shop yesterday. I was tired and asleep at 9pm last night. I slept fine again ….. such a huge comfort to me. Also putting myself under ‘stress’ is not going to help me. Grateful for my sleep at the moment. 

Told my sister Vickie last night. She was calm which is good although I think she was upset as well. She has offered help which I said I may need later on. I will def need help with my parents and that is where she can step in. 

I have been listening to a lot of content on Insight Timer. It’s so helpful. I have realised that pushing my body is maybe not a good thing so I have decided to not go to the gym today. Maybe tomorrow. 

Insight Timer is saying I need to accept that I am ill. I think I thought that carrying on as normal was the way to go but maybe I do need to slow down and I will need to accept my limitations. I also need to ask for help when I need it. 

Being able to control some of what is happening is a huge comfort to me. Also putting myself under ‘stress’ is NOT going to help me I have realised.

Ali is off work today and wants to take the kids to Ross Sands. I don’t really want to go as i am so tired but feel I should for him. 

In just over 48hours I will know more……. Xx