Day 7: Guesswork (Part 2)

Went to circuits this morning with Meg…. it was great. Took Bear on a walk in the woods. Went to hairdressers for 4 hours!! Great distraction ….. just casual conversation. Hair looks better glad I got it done even if it’s going to fall out!! 

Think I have Phyllodes tumour?? It seems to fit. Most are benign. Been thinking tonight a lot about losing my breasts. Has started to bother me. Still happy to have them removed but feels like a very big step. Last week it seemed insignificant in the face of death….now it seems more important. 

My sister rang me tonight to say she wanted to come up this weekend …..don’t really want her to except she may be helpful when I tell my parents. 

I wonder what people ever did before GOOGLE! I have used it a lot this week. Might look for groups ‘support wise’ for breast cancer. 

Dear God, Please let me live. I have only just had time for myself and I want more of my life. I want to see my kids settled and happy. In employment. I want  to experience grandchildren. I really do appreciate life and all the beauty around me. I am happy to live without breasts just let me live. 

Thank you Lord. AMEN x  Ps I will check in tomorrow x