Day 10: Reasons to live
Despite the circumstances, yesterday was a good day on the whole. Sunny too, which helped.
Day 9: It’s Lobular
Yesterday I found out I have Lobular Breast Cancer. It’s Oestrogen and Progesterone fed which is a good thing (apparently). I was upset for a few seconds but fine after that
Day 8: D Day
So today is D day! I am praying those biopsies are back. The thought of waiting longer again is not a good one. I must remember to ring radiology for a CT scan cancellation.
Day 7: Guesswork (Part 2)
My day of guesswork continued and I kept myself busy as a distraction from the impending diagnosis
Day 7: Guesswork
I have realised that my anxiety is at it’s worst before bed and first thing in the morning. Despite this I am proud of the way I have handled this last week
Day 6: Home is not just a place, it’s a feeling
I am home and I love home. Being able to control some of what is happening is a huge comfort to me
Day 5: Roll with it
I am going to need to learn to take things as they come. That just because one day they say ‘this’ it’s not set in stone and can change at any point during treatment as they learn more. I need to not take everything they say as ‘gospel’.
Day 4: It’s all about HOW you respond
I am in Leeds at Niamh’s house. Yesterday morning I decided when I was in the gym that I am going to beat the big C!! My mindset needs to remain positive. I went to the gym, packed my stuff up and drove to Leeds.
Day 3: Think, Meditate, Reflect and Plan
My mind is working overtime. I have found a lot of content on insight timer for cancer. I am going to try and practice meditation a lot. I believe in a positive mindset being important but I am still terrified.
Day 2: Gym Gains, Canine Companions, and Nostalgic Tears
Strange day today. Managed to go to the gym and do a class which actually lifted my spirits. Then a dog walk, then a snooze. Had my MRI scan….it was fine.
